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Friday, May 4th, 2007
2:55 pm	I'm strangly breathing a sigh of relief right now...don't really know why. I still have all my hardest work ahead of me, i.e.: paper due tues, complete ITAP project/presentation due Wed, and then who can forget finals coming up. I've been reallllly stressin over stats b/c im just lost and i've never done so terribly in a class before, but today i met with my professor for an hour and now i feel sooooooo much better about it, and things are kinda looking up. I also got a goodly amount of research done for my paper for Renaissance Italy, and I reread the instructions last night and it's not a straight 10 pager, it's a 7-10 pager, which makes me SOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!! That boy's gonna be 7 pages, let me tell you. Actually, I'm pretty loquacious in my papers, so It'll probably end up being close to 9 or something. Oh well, basically all I have to worry about is making a good argument and doing it within 7 pages! whoo! And then im doin alright so far on my ITAP project, just a tick behind, but oh well...I know i'll pull it off. So, once that project is done, i will be studying for stats NON-STOP. Seriously...i'll be a mad-woman. I HAVE to get an A on that boy...it's crucial. Wow...i've never ever had to worry about a grade like this before...oh goodness. But yeah, so got a lot of work to do, should just take the weekend and do it...but alas, I cannot for i have made previous plans. Tonight I'm working a lock-in at my friend Will's church from 6p-6a. Yeah...I'll most likely fall asleep since i got about 3 1/2 hrs last night, haha. Then, tomorrow afternoon I'm having lunch with the one and only HOPE!! She's my old vball coach/bible study leader and i am SOOOO excited to see here! ahhhh! Then it's back to G-castle to get a big of that paper done. THEN...Amanda, Charlsie, Melissa, and Jon are ALL coming to spend the night with me and were gonna have CRAZY fun times!! oh my gosh, SO excited!! :-D I also need to film me making a coconut chicken dish for my ITAP project, so lucky for them they get a sweet dinner out of it! hee hee! But i LOVE to cook, so I'm happy to do it. I would just rather be doing it in my own kitchen, eh, oh well. So...suffice it to say I'M READY TO COME HOME!!!!!! Ahhh! I'm over school! I just wanna be HOME, and SWIMMING! I have just had to swim on my own since season ended in FEBRUARY! OH wow, i am soooo out of shape. Coach Karr is gonna be like, "Wow...you're pathetic now." It's gonna hurt a LOT when i go back and swim his practices again...oi vey. But oh well, gotta go get my swim on and then head to the Lock-In! LOVE YOU ALL! Oh, and i almost forgot...I hate you people that are done already. >:( <3 Sabrina Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 26th, 2007
8:24 pm	better... Ok, so today was a MUCH better day! I stayed up late writing a paper, but i feel it was a good one, so that helps. And i talked to my mom last night and she calmed me down a lot. Also, I really think God was takin care of me because quite a few of my friends randomly called b/c they had been thinkin about me that day and wanted to see how I was doing...well, they got an earful, but i felt much better. At the end of the day, I realized that there is so much more to life than good grades, and although grades and our "futures" seem like the most important things in the world, I know that God will always take care of me, no matter what happens. So, even thought I can't always depend on school...I CAN depend on God! Ohhh, those little life lessons. So yeah, today has been good, and I've just been sittin here with my friend emily, getting NOTHING done, but dying laughin the whole time! LOVE IT! Oh, and big shout out to Ronald!! I wish i could have made it to your film expo! :-( But i had a scholarship dinner here at Alpha Chi and i invited professors, so couldn't get out of it, but I hope everything went well! I'll have to watch the movies over the summmmmmer!! :-D Well, gotta do some research for another paper! Love you all! God bless! Current Mood: content (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
12:41 pm	Over It School...I'm so over it. I just got a D on a stats test that i studied an entire week for. I can't take this. And I had failed the test before it. Soooo, I just don't know what I'm going to do. I have never felt so stupid before. And people who are trying to make me feel better are like, "Well, atleast you know you did all you could." But I think that's the hardest part. I've never put so much effort into something and then completely failed at it. Why the hell even try anymore then? This is awful. And I know it's just 1 class, but still, this probably shouldn't be this hard. I just don't understand that class, how she teaches it, how she words questions. Nothing. I just don't get it. And today we had to put answers on the board, and I looked like an idiot up there b/c I didn't even understand what she was asking. I did not comprehend her question whatsoever...ughhhh. I've never sucked so much at school before. I can't handle this. Yeah, i realize this is college and it's harder, but seriously...I'm borderline failing a class. What the hell?! So yeah, when I got my test back, i was in a state of shock and had to hold back tears. All i wanted to do was call my mom and cry, but I had another class right after it. So i go into the other building and was gonna go to the bathroom to cry, but I turned the corner and my good friend Curlee was hiding and jumped out at me and scared me, and then all my emotions came out and i just started crying. He felt awful because he thought he scared me so much that i started crying, haha, but I quickly explained why I was upset, and he consoled me and such. Good friend that Curlee. But yeah, I really just wanna call my mom and cry but her work isn't picking up. :-( Perhaps tonight. Ugh, still so much work to do. 2 papers. I HATE how late we get out. I would almost be done right now if i didn't go to this awful school! grrr! DePauw...I love you, socially speaking, but i HATE you academically. You have made me feel like a worthless person... Grrrr. But, I saw Ami's DNA thingy and I thought it was really cool, so I took a break and did one, & it cheered me up a bit. I think it's fairly accurate as well. Here it is! Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™ Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Katherine McPhee "Over It" (Comment on this)
Friday, December 29th, 2006
11:31 am	Well, break has been a lot of fun so far! The 1st week i was on a training trip in florida, which was a lot of fun even though it was hard. But I got to swim in an outdoor pool so i got tan. :) Then when I 1st got back I spent the 22nd-25th with my family of course, so that was nice! Then I got to hang out with friends. Tuesday night I hung out with all the guys i used to Parking Lot Party with, so that was awesomely good times! :-) Then Wednesday was filled with Ami, Ronald, and Collin! SOOOO MUCH FUN! And i think its safe to say that i have fallen in love with my first video game system. Ronald's Wii is AMAZING! We played that for soooooo long! And we also made mexican food, yummy! :-) Ah, that was such a fun day! I love you guys! Thursday I had a girls night where we went to Cheeseburger in paradise and hot tubbed in Trish's. Then we all stayed the night at her house, and watched movies and just had girl talk. AHhh, it was soooo nice. I've really missed that. It's so weird to think that this time last year we saw each other ALLL THE TIIIIIME...kinda sad. And tonight I am house-sitting for my aunt and uncle so that will be a lot of fun, im excited. Moving on, I go back to school the 3rd. I hardly had a break at all, granted the trip to florida took a week of it, but still. We were only given 2 1/2 weeks. Grrr. Oh well. The good news is that I'm really liking DePauw now. For those of you who had talked to me and knew that i just didn't like it very much and was very bored, i am now happy and content. :-) And I'm kinda excited to get back for Winter Term. I'm taking Romance Novels, and we are only reading 3 novels. The rest of the time we'll be watching and analyzing movies as well as making collages and scrapbooks, and going downtown to see Beauty and the Beast(which happens to be my favorite Disney movie of all time)! So yeah, i think this will be reallllly enjoyable, and one of my really good friends is in that class too, so we'll have a lot of fun. I'm just happy where I am right now in school. I've met some really cool people so far that I hope to get to know even better. ;-) And I think that's all I have for right now! Have a wonderful day! God bless! :-) Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Friday, December 15th, 2006
12:16 pm	Whoo! Sooo, my first semester in college is over with. How bout that...feels kinda weird. But wonderful at the same time! Ahh, I'm so happy to be done! To actually have a break and not have to do homework. It's a beautiful thing! :-) I took my Black Studies final today, which was the only class that was an actual cumulative final, but it went realllly well i think. And i got my HUGE paper back and I got an A- on it, which satisfies me. :-) She said she really wanted to give me an A on it, but i used too many internet sources (a misunderstanding on my part), but oh well. I had to use different internet sources to get the statistics I needed, so hey...what're ya gonna do? Oh well, an A- pleases me! So yeah, I'm done now. Just getting everything ready for Florida! I'm really excited because I'm gonna have a BLAST with the people on my team, and hopefully I'll get to know the mens team better. But at the same time...it's gonna beat the crap out of me. Seriously...we're gonna be swimming so much. Oh well, I'll be in Florida! And I'll be able to go lay out in between practices! And morning practices aren't until 10, so we can actually go out at night! Whoo! :-D I'm getting pumped! And with that, I need to finish some last minute packing before my friend Nick stops in! :-) Love you all and see you after i get home the 22nd! <3 Current Mood: excited (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
3:31 pm	Food for Thought... Currently in the United States, a young black male is more likely to be murdered than graduate from high school. Let's just think about that... (Comment on this)
Monday, December 4th, 2006
8:43 pm	About to snap So, i have sooo much work to do! I have an 8-10 pg paper in black studies due thurs, along with a 45-50 min presentation for the exact same class. Hm...makes sense. And along with that, i have my website due thursday. I'm sure you all are just as swamped, so i should just shut up, but this this my first college semester, and this all just seems to be FAR too much! Ahh! I had dream sequences last night that were just of me, going to classes being completely unprepared for things. Like one class had a paper due that i didn't know about, and one had a test that i didn't know about. So, i woke up stressed out as well. NOT cool. So here I am, taking a break for my sanity's sake. I'll stop complaining now and get back to work! OH, the kinda cool thing was that after i locked myself up in a study room in the library yesterday for 9 1/2 hours, i was strangely inspired to write poetry. And it wasn't about stress or anything. It was a nice one about love. :-) I don't really think it's fit for people to see, because I'm not really sure if it's good, but i really like it. So now I can read it and smile. Haha, so that was something good that came out of my stress. I found an outlet. But ok, now back to work! I'm off to right about stereotypes of African Americans in the US! Wish me luck! God bless! Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 12th, 2006
11:50 pm	So....this weekend was AMAZING! :-D This past week was soooooooo hard, academically speaking. I had a huge test and a 6 page paper, so the weekend couldn't come fast enough. And what a weekend it was! :-) Friday night i had a swim meet, and i actually had good swims and dropped time, which made me verrrry happy. My dearest friend Michelle Heeger came to my meet and then stayed the night. OH, and Friday night i discovered that Ami and Ronald are now engaged and i was ECSTATIC!! Which i still am! And im DYING to hear the details! (Ronald, i sure hope it was a romantic proposal!) :-) Then Saturday was the Monon Bell game between Depauw and Wabash, and Michelle went with me to that, which was a ton of fun...even though was lost 23-20. :-( But then we went and visited my sister and her bf and his frat house on campus. Then we went and saw David Haggard, who plays football for wabash, at his parent's tail-gate after the game. That was a ton of fun. Oh, and my great friend since 3rd grade, miss courtney king, came up for the weekend as well! That was so wonderful! So, Michelle, Court, and I came back to DePauw, and Michelle had to go home. Then i changed and i got ready and court and i went back to Wabash to stay with Dave. We got there, partied, had an amazing time! After dancing for awhile, Ian finally showed up!!! That was so awesome! Then we all went to dave's friends house, talked and laughed a ton. Then 7 of us, 4 of them being wabash football players, piled in my lumina in search of food at 2:30 am, b/c we were all starving. Needless to say THAT was a blast! Then we came back, hung out in dave's dorm room and pretty much laughed until 5 am. And alas, i no longer have a voice. Hopefully that'll come back soon. I need it! SO yeah, that was my weekend. I've been having some great weekends lately. :-) Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 9th, 2006
12:30 pm	boo for college College is hard. End of story. But that's not the end of the story, it's only the beginning really. Since I've come to college, I have realized that I am a completely naive and foolish person. My black studies class has really opened my eyes to this fact. I of course knew that there is still racism in our country and that it is still a HUGE colossal problem. I just never knew how big. Or just how ingrained racism is into the minds of whites in america. And this causes me to look like the silly white girl in my class sometimes. In my black studies class we discuss our readings and i feel that a lot of times im pretty realistic and know how things really are and make good comments in class, but then, my hopeless optimism sneaks in occasionally and i look like an idiot. Like today. And the teacher just kinda looked at me and said, "Well, Sabrina you're different and that's not how the world is." And then i bowed my head in shame. I just hate that sometimes i can't see how things really are. I'm coming to realize that no matter how hard I try to see life from the viewpoint of a black person and how frustrating it must be, i can never really know. And that frustrates me because then I don't always know how to make things better. And i don't see a point in learning all this information about the injustices and discrimination against blacks if we don't try to do anything to change it. I just want to make things better, am i so foolish for feeling this way? Sometimes I just feel that when i make suggestions in class about how we could fix things people just react me to like "What color is the sky in your world?" And i really just don't know what to do about it. I want to make a difference so badly and i don't want this injustice to continue, but people are just making me feel like it's impossible, and that frustrates that hopeless optimist in me. And i now have to go write a paper for Holocaust Literature that i have been putting off ALL week! Ugh, i'm so lame! Current Mood: frustrated (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
3:22 pm	NOOOOO! Well, what I have feared for awhile is finally going to occur. Bob Barker is going to be retiring from "The Price Is Right" this coming June. :-( After 35 years, he's finally going to retire at 83. He says the job is just too physically and mentally demanding now. I can't blame the man, I'M certainly not going to still be working at 83!! But still...I always wanted to go on that show and see good ol' Bob. But that seems impossible now. Tear :'-( But I would like to leave you all with a quote from Bob about what he would like to do when he retires. "He said he'd take on a movie role if the right one came along, but filmmakers, take note: 'I refuse to do nude scenes. These Hollywood producers want to capitalize on my obvious sexuality, but I don't want to be just another beautiful body.'" Oh Bob... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 30th, 2006
12:45 am	wow... ok, so AWESOME weekend!! I went to a halloween party friday night with some girls. We went as a set: one was a spatula, one a whisk, one a frying pan, and i was scrambled eggs. It was amazing...we totally won the competition! :-) Then saturday i had my very first college swim meet. It was pretty descent. I was sooo nervous for the 200 fly, but it actually went really well, and i think i like it better than the 100 fly. THEN, the fun started! I got ready afterwards and went to ISU to hang out with Ami, Ronald, and Ronald's friend Kyle. We went to the best place on earth...Cheeseburge In Paradise!!! :-D I was EXTREMELY pleased about that! Then we went to the lamest haunted house i've ever been to, but luckily it was free for us. The only good part was the vibrating bench, right ami, haha. But then we had a fun hour car ride to another haunted house that was really good! The best part was Ronald's fake screaming throughout and the rest of us actually screaming. Well, maybe it was only me who was actually screaming, but Kyle definitely was freaking out by jason following him, haha. Then we watched "Rosemary's Baby", which was pretty funny, especially the end. So yeah, i laughed a ridiculous amount, my throat actually started hurting. So thanks guys for a great weekend! :-) Love ya! (Comment on this)
Friday, October 20th, 2006
1:43 am	Girls, LISTEN UP! Ok, so I'm on Fall Break right now, enjoying time at home with my family, loving life. SO, my mom and i get home from Avon's sectional vball game and listen to the answering machine. My aunt marcie has left a message and sounds very distraught. So my mom calls her back, no answer. Then aunt marcie calls back, and i have to listen to this conversation by only hearing what my mom is saying...and i'm absolutely terrified. So, here it goes: Wednesday night, my cousin katie (goes to ball state) was out with a girlfriend and went to a guy's house. Well, katie was ready to leave but the girl wasn't so she told katie to go home herself. So, katie leaves to walk back to her dorm by herself, and apparently her dorm is LITERALLY right around the corner. Well, as she's walking, she has to walk by a building that isn't that well lit, and while she's in front of this building, a man comes up behind her and grabs her. She starts screaming and scratching him with her keys, but he keeps going and manages to get his hands up her shirt. She keeps fighting him and is able to hit him in the stomach hard enough to kind of knock him back and she is able to run away, as she's running away, she looks back to see that he is luckily running in another direction and isn't following her . She then runs into her dorm, still screaming and freaking out(rightfully so) and an adult in charge calls the police and they file a report and everything. Needless to say, my entire family is extremely upset and shaken up right now. This is just so terrifying. What if she hadn't been able to fight him off? So many girls aren't so lucky. That breaks my heart. Why is the world such a scary place? Why? I don't even understand. But I am thanking God so much for giving her the strength to fight off her attacker. I am really very proud of her. Ah, i love her so much, i just don't know what I would do if something worse had happened to her. SO GIRLS PLEASE BE CAREFUL! SERIOUSLY! Don't walk alone. And don't always trust the guys around you at school, you haven't known them that long. They may seem like really great guys, but guess what...you haven't grown up with them, you don't know their background. You've known them for about 2 months, that's it (talking to freshmen girls here, i know it's a little different for you older girls). But that is just not enough time to truly judge someone's character. So please, JUST BE CAREFUL! IT HAPPENS! I love you all, and i just don't want anything bad to happen. Please keep my cousin in your prayers that she will be ok, I'm sure she'll still be shaken up for awhile. Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 17th, 2006
11:02 pm	This sucks... So, this weekend EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS went to Purdue for the weekend. NOT KIDDING. Every single girlfriend. Except me. I had parents weekend here at DePauw. Which was awesome, I'm not trying to say I didn't want to spend time with my family. It was MUCH needed and soooo enjoyable. I just reallllly wish it had been a different weekend. Even Courtney came ALL the way from Evansville to go, which I got a voicemail at 7 something telling me that. Well, at that point i was already about to watch a movie with my family at Rave in Plainfield. Man, and now they all have pictures up on their facebooks together, and I'm not there. I hate missin stuff so much, especially with some of the people I love the most. I hate this so much. I know there will be plenty of other times where we can hang out, but actually, no that's a lie. There won't be. We don't see each other any more. So these things are rare. And I missed one already. And I'm not hardly going to be home on Christmas break either. I have one week at home. The rest of the time I'll be swimming. I know I chose it, and I love swimming so much, I'm not willing to quit. I just wish I could have my cake and eat it too. I'm absolutely terrified of growing apart from my friends. I love them so much and I miss them terribly. I really like the people here, and I'm really starting to like college life, but none of it is as great as what I had before. I know it's only the beginning and it will only get better, I know all that. it's just it is so hard leaving everyone and the life that I had in high school. Sure, there were things that sucked about high school, but I had my friends. I knew this would be hard...but i had no idea. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Friday, September 15th, 2006
2:51 pm	Weeeeekend! So, this week started out a nightmare. 2 papers, due one day apart, I thought I was going to die. But now that all that is mostly over, just editing and tweaking, it's turned out to be a pretty good week! My class on thursday was cancelled, so alex till and I went on a spur of the moment trip to Purdue, which rocked! I stayed the night with my dearest michelle! I got to see Angie, Kristen, Patricia, Melissa, Joe, and Corcoran. It was soooooooo awesome1 I seriously needed that. It rocked a lot! But then i came back to depauw yesterday morning, finished a paper, and got an email from my professor who cancelled class yesterday (black studies class). So, apparently she has to take a leave of absence for health reasons and so she won't be our teacher anymore. I was sooo sad when I read that. She is such an awesome teacher! Seriously, she is so smart and tough and just really makes you think about things. It was one of my favorite classes. I really just hope she's ok. I talked to another one of my professors about it and she said Professor Dickerson was a very private women, so no one knows, but we think it's cancer. :'-( So, I've just been praying for her and hope that she recovers. So, on to a lighter subject, this weekend is parents weekend here at DePauw University. My mom, dad, and sister are coming tomorrow and we're just gonna hang out. I'm pretty excited! We haven't done anything as a family since I moved in here, so i really miss that! We're gonna go to this old house on 40 that was restored and you can go on tours and walk through it. My family is weird and we love to do that! No joke, we made an entire vacation out of it last summer down in georgia and south carolina. So yeah, I'm just reallllly excited to see my family, they rock...hardcore! Well, I am getting SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED for next weekend! I can't wait until Ami's party! Even though I will be pretty late because of the Homecoming Game, but hey, if it goes til 12ish, then i'll get to hang out for awhile. I can't wait to see you guys! eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Well, I'm gonna go workout now and then i have 2 conferences for the papers I wrote in a row. So, hopefully they don't tear my papers to shreds, that would suck. Have a wonderful day!! GOD BLESS! <3 Sabrina (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
8:16 pm	papers Papers make me want to cry. the end. Current Mood: stressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
1:50 am	I'm comforted to know that I'm not the only one who was very saddened by the news that the one, the only Steve Irwin was tragically killed today. I mean, he was speared through the heart by a poisonous barb of a stingray. Just think about that. That is so horrible! I mean, it is a somewhat fitting way for him to go, but still, it's sooo sad. I feel so bad for his family. He had 2 little kids and a wife. :-( I watched the show myself and found him wildly entertaining. And I'm gonna have to agree with Krobbins that when i first saw the headline on the AOL main page, I didn't believe it. I don't why I thought AOL would make that up, but I didn't want to believe it was true. Poor guy. :-( Well, things are going verrrry well here! Did some Hap Kido tonight, swam, went to dinner, then bible study, then studied with my friends Brittany & Curlee. Then Brittany left to go play piano and Curlee and i didn't get ANYTHING done! So,then I went with Curlee to his dorm to blow up coke 2 liters by putting mentos in them. Surprisingly fun! Then i came back and FINALLY finished my hw for tomorrow. I've really been trying to get ahead in my school work. Well, turns out I'm just barely getting by, how bout that. Well, it is BED TIME! Love you all and hope everything is going well! God Bless! Sabrina Current Mood: Schweeeepy (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 20th, 2006
2:01 am	Things are better So, after that entry i wrote yesterday, things have been going better. My parents came today for the "Official" orientation stuff, so it was GREAT to see them. It took a lot for me to not cry at some points. I just really enjoy being around them. But yeah, it was good to just hangout with them for awhile and all that jazz. Then all the activities began. Some were cool. During our luau, i just wasn't in the mood to socialize with ELEVETY BILLION people and i ended up talking to a kid from Avon for awhile and then some ITAP'ers. We all started having a lot of fun then! I really liked that. :-) Then a bunch of us watched School of Rock but ended up talking the entire time. But it was really fun! Things are looking up already. Oh, except when i was getting ready for bed tonight, some random guy puked in my neighbors room, so that stunk real bad. She came in the bathrooom to clean it and we were sooooo grossed out! blegh! Well, im very tired and I'm getting up early to go to a Spiritual Brunch to find out about churches in the area. So, I'm gonna rollll out! Love you all! Oh, Ami and Ronald...you have NO idea how badly i wanted to come in tonight and go to dinner with you guys. It was killing me so much! I hope you guys had a lot of fun though! Love you very much! Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 19th, 2006
12:47 am	Oh, College... So, I've kinda been planning on writing in this thing for awhile now, and just haven't gotten the chance. So here goes! Well, I moved in Sunday afternoon, the 13th, which is a week earlier than almost everyone else on campus. There were some other groups here too, so we've been getting to know them lately. Oh, and the whole football team arrived monday...so that's been nice. :-) Everything seemed really great at first and i was getting to know a lot of people and making some good friends for the first few days. I wasn't feeling down, i was really liking the excitement of college. And then the homesickness sunk in. I don't get homesick when im on vacation for a week, not by any means. But the realization that I'm not coming home for a loooooong time finally hit me (as I feared it would) and I started to get kinda down. I started to really miss my parents and my friends. I really miss people who understand me and already know me so well that I don't have to hold back. I mean, I am getting to know a lot of people, but i still can't say some of th ridiculous stuff I saw normally that you all are used to. And it's not like the people here are mean or anything, well, there are a couple douchebags, but hey, it happens. It's just that I'm tired of making all this small talk and all that crap. Yeah, it's only been a week Sabrina, get used to it for awhile. And sometimes when I talk here, people just don't pay attention to me, and I'm like, "Hello...?" I guess im just not used to it. I mean, I've always said stupid stuff, but I'm used to people actually listening to what I say. Things are just different. Like there is this group of guys in my ITAP group who are really funny and actually remind me a lot of the guys I hung out with in high school. Only thing is, these guys are more jerky. They're not quite as funny as the guys from high school, and they drink all the time. And they're those types of guys that won't give you the time of day unless you "Party!" with them or you're a super hot hottie. Ugh, that annoys me so much. I just can't stand it when people are like that. They just make people around them feel bad. And i have to be around them from 9-4 everyday and they just put me in a bad mood. I mean, I say stuff and they just stare at me blankly. And I'm just like, wow, ok, nevermind. We apparently have WAY different senses of humor. Luckily I don't have to be around them anymore. Ugh, i just hope this place isn't FULLLL of people like that. Back to the homesickness think, Wednesday was when it was really bad I think. I called amanda just to hear a familiar voice and i emailed my parents and I just kinda cried. After I talked to amanda though, some people were like, "Hey! We're gonna go hang out, wanna come!" and they are all people that are pretty funny and actually listen when I talk. So, spending time with them was really good. And tonight I went out to dinner with a bunch of people to a chinese buffet (not really into chinese, but mexican food had been our first goal but the place was packed). People were realllly funny tonight and we all just had a really great time. So, now that I'm actually kinda establishing a group of people I hang out with, things are getting better. I'm adjusting better now. There are still random times in the day when I get blue, but it doesn't last long. I'm kinda ready for classes to start (thought im NOT looking forward to the work), that way i can just settle into a routine and meet new people in my classes. I'm also kinda nervous about balancing all the school work, ITAP, and swimming. But hey, I can do it! I can just relax and hang out on the weekends if necessary. I mean, that's what i did in high school. I never hung out w/ ppl on weeknights, so it won't be that different. It's kinda weird to think that my life is so different now. And that i probably won't live with my parents full time ever again. Because after college im probably going to grad school and after that i'll be old and have a job/home/family(?) of my own. Wow, I only have summers with mommy and daddy now. Just crazy. I never thought this day would come, when I'm actually IN college. Different. Well, I have CERTAINLY babbled long enough, sorry to dump on you all like that. I've just needed to get that all out. Express some things that have been stressing me and have been on my mind. I love you all! Current Mood: tired (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
3:04 am	Yay for concerts! So, went to the Rascal Flatts concert tonight. It was...AMAZING!!!! It was my graduation present from my sister, and I LOVED it! They are such a great band! They put on an awesome live show as well! Great way to spend one of my last nights here. So yeah, I'm leaving Sunday. I'm getting incredibly nervous. Excited, but very very nervous. I know I'll adjust alright it's just that I really enjoyed high school and I know things will never be the same. I'm just hoping and praying I keep my high school friends and just the friends i have in general. I know by now that I'll never be rid of Ami, b/c we can go without talking for so long and then we just pick right back up. But i really prefer to NOT go forever without talking. *Ya hear that!* That goes for those who go along with her (Ronald). Anywho, today i went to lunch with some of my girlfriends. Then Amanda and I went and saw "Step Up." Yes, verrrry cheesy. I knew it would be, so i had it comin. I just love dance movies, i can't resist them. Aman and i had a pretty good time mocking the movie (as well as some of the viewers) during the movie. Then i did some last minute shopping, and then we to dinner and the concert w/ my sister, Danielle. I'm so glad we got to hang out together before I leave. She really is one of my best friends, and I'm going to miss her sooooo much when I'm gone. Guh, I'm gonna miss my family so much! I'm really glad we're all so close, but it makes it hard to be away for a long amount of time. Oh well, i gotta grow up sometime, don't I? Well, I need to start packing my clothes now and finish a bulletin board im making to take with me. Love you all very much! Night and God bless! <3 Sabrina Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
12:03 am	I'm back...again So, I got back from Lake Cumberland where i spent this past week. It was VERRY sunny, but SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excrutiatingly hot. But oh well, it was very enjoyable nonetheless. I REALLLLLY miss people! SUCH AS: Ami, Ronald, and Collin!!! So...let's hang out, PLEASE! I love you guys very much and I'm getting pretty bummed as I look back on a lot of this summer and realize i have NOT had as much of you guys as i need. So yeah, let's make it soon. How bout it? Moving on, my move in date is 3 weeks from today. I will be doing some massive shopping after church and getting ready for school. Man...it seems unreal, but i'm about to be out...on my own for 9 months. I'm slowing transitioning into the completely "EXCITED" phase, rather than the "excited/nervous" stage. But there are definitely some nerves. I mean, I'm not gonna have my mommy around anymore to take care of me. When I'm feeling a little under the weather, im gonna have to give myself the medicine and all that jazz. Kinda scary. I know it's scary for her too. It's just that my mom and I have become REALLY close during my high school years. I am slowly, but surely, turning into her, more and more everyday. We are still pretty different, but she has become one of my great friends. But she's not like one of those moms whos doesn't discipline their children b/c they want to be "cool". She'll still crack that whip, but she just really hasn't had to in the last few years. But yeah, I think I'll have a little homesickness. I'm gonna miss my sister a lot! OH man, she's definitely one of my best friends, and not having her around will be really hard to adjust to. But i really think once i get past those changes and get out of my homesickness, I will be having a blast! OH yeah, im also a little nervous about swimming there too. I'm not really worried that their program will be harder b/c our high school and club teams run some reallllly tough practices, but i'm just kinda sad that I won't be with the team I always swam for. I'm gonna miss Michelle sooo much. It's just not going to be the same. I'm sure it will be amazing in it's own way, but I've just been looking back on my last 2 years in swimming, and man...i'm gonna miss high school swimming. And also, I'm kinda getting separation anxiety about leaving my coach. I've only been swimming for him for a year now, but i am so attached to him. We clicked really well from the get go, and he knows im a hard worker and he has just made me soooo much better. I'm babbling now, so i'll stop, but...those are the things that have been on my mind. Those are my concerns really about goign to school. Oh yeah, and im not looking forward to the work being a lot harder, which im sure it will be. :-( Oh well, gotta adjust I guess. Well, I'll shut up now...finally. :-) Love you all and God bless! <3 Sabrina Current Mood: thoughtful (1 Comment |Comment on this)